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ariel_le_duh @ 2009-04-07T13:15:00

2009-04-07T20:15:46Z

if i have anything to do with it, i'm never getting close to anyone ever again.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-11-14T16:15:00

2008-11-15T00:18:23Z

Oh, right, I guess I should at least update this when something kinda big in my life happens.

I've had a boyfriend for a few weeks now, I guess you could say. I like him a lot, so I think I'll keep him. :) I could definitely say more, but I just don't feel like it.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-29T14:03:00

2008-08-29T21:06:28Z

I quit smoking pot. :P

I don't have an appitite anymore, and when I do eat I feel really sick for about an hour. I can't sleep very well anymore, either.

And this was a good idea, why? Bleh. At least I have my mind back.

Other than that things have been really good. :) Radiohead was SUPERFUCKINGFANTASTIC. My god, I can't get over it.

ps. I love that my cat follows me all around the house. I just wish she could talk. I always look at her and expect her to say something hahahahaha.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-25T02:29:00

2008-08-25T09:33:40Z

Excuse me while I crawl under a rock to watch how this one turns out.

hahahaha.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-18T23:27:00

2008-08-19T06:28:47Z

People in relationships annoy the hell out of me.

Maybe I'm just bitter because it's not me. But no, it's annoying.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-12T23:17:00

2008-08-13T06:18:05Z

You know, he would probably make a better roommate than me. You spend more time over there and with him anyways.

Just saying.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-02T14:37:00

2008-08-02T21:41:02Z

I can't wait to start new next year.

I'm not going to miss anything here. I'm really not.

No offense, but I'm just over my life in San Diego. I'm not happy here. Maybe I won't be happy there either, but I sure as hell can try.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-08-01T00:39:00

2008-08-01T07:39:40Z

One day it would be nice to actually be happy.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-07-28T00:07:00

2008-07-28T07:08:23Z

I stand out because I don't.

stfu, it makes sense to me.

people are just too nervous of my to say anything. :) That's my posttitive thought

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-07-26T16:34:00

2008-07-26T23:44:11Z

I forgot what it feels like to be noticed, I think. o.o
I don't stand out, I'm just there. People don't care to pay attention. Stand me next to my best friend and I don't exist anymore. (not saying that to offend, because she always notices me haha)

Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed, negative or unhappy. It's just something I've been thinking about. Do I stand out? I feel so bland and boring, and I'd rather not! hahaha.

I tried to word this as best as possible without sounding whiny or pissy, because that's not what I mean to do.

I think I just need a little more confidence and a lot less paranoia.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-07-05T15:56:00

2008-07-05T22:56:15Z

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-06-28T22:57:00

2008-06-29T06:00:41Z

lolz.

Shit's funny. But only because if I don't find it funny, I wouldn't be too happy of a person.

Recent strike two against me. Haha. What's three going to be?!

I have a really crappy headache.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-06-19T16:19:00

2008-06-19T23:20:35Z

Last night = best drum circle EVER.

I don't even have the words to explain it simply.

Oh my, this Irish boy. :)

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-06-09T20:57:00

2008-06-10T03:58:37Z

Next time I hear/see someone use the word "tat" in normal context (not just to make me mad, because I don't care then) I'm going to find a baby and punch it. x.x

It's uglyyyyyyyy.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-05-27T16:48:00

2008-05-27T23:48:35Z

Dear life,

Stop fucking around with me, please.

love, Arielle.

I'm so fucking done.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-05-21T20:47:00

2008-05-22T03:47:50Z

i'm lonely.

what the fuck else is new.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-05-18T20:17:00

2008-05-19T03:19:04Z

My heart hurts and aches and feels empty, plus I feel nervous. I don't know why. Hi, please stop.

</emo>

:P

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-05-15T23:29:00

2008-05-16T06:30:28Z

Lately I feel like my friends aren't really my friends.

I just wish they wouldn't pretend to be.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-04-27T20:03:00

2008-04-28T03:05:22Z

I think it's better off that I don't get to say good bye. It wouldn't be fair if I did.

I just have to let it all go.

Kay.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-04-16T00:13:00

2008-04-16T07:14:49Z

my body aches for touch. not in the sexual way, just in a nice way.

it hurts. it's been so long.

lol i'm silly.....

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-04-14T01:42:00

2008-04-14T08:43:58Z

Oh shit. I think I might be depressed. or maybe I'm too drunk right now to know.

Nada Surf, you know me way too well......

P.s. I update this journal time way to occasionally to ever have one.

"Beautiful Beat"

Leave me alone, and there'll be
No one to get hurt
Nobody move and there'll be
Nothin' to disturb
The sum of it all is that you
Don't know where to turn
Despite all your promises you
Don't keep what you learn

Beautiful beat get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat lift me up from distress

Sometimes all i want is another
Drink or another pill
If i could get anything done
Maybe I'd hold still
I'm trying to levitate I'm
Trying to leave the ground
Tryin' to remember when i could
Fix anything with sound

Beautiful beat get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat lift me up from distress

I believe our love can save me
Have to believe that it can
I want to redirect myself with you
Do you understand?

Beautiful beat, get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat, lift me up from distress

(Beautiful beat get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat lift me up from distress)

I believe our love can save me
Have to believe that it can
I gotta reinvent myself for you
Can i be your man?
I believe our love can save me
Have to believe that i can
I wanna redirect myself with you
'Cause you understand

Beautiful beat, get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat, lift me up from distress

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-04-06T18:13:00

2008-04-07T01:13:39Z

lolololololololol

Fuck you.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-03-27T02:50:00

2008-03-27T09:52:37Z

Weird things have been happening lately. I wonder if they mean something, or if I'm just overlooking everything. It would be nice to have a good month. I always randomly start having good things happen after a while of sad.

Hi, I don't make any sense right now.

Oh well. I'll find out.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-03-25T01:37:00

2008-03-25T08:37:28Z

whyyyyyyyyyyyy?

my stomach is twisting and turning.

ariel_le_duh @ 2008-03-20T15:46:00

2008-03-20T22:47:48Z

I just want to be alone for a while...

Idk why, I just do.

fdsklfjsadklgearklgnfdakjg I wish i knew what was wrong with me recently. I feel dead.